An overwhelming sadness

A week ago today my sweet husband passed away, and the sadness is sometimes overwhelming. We had been married 42 years.

As my long-time readers may remember, Bob had been ill and I had been his caregiver for almost four years. The month of September was very difficult for him, as he was in much pain. He was hospitalized for a week before being released to return home in hospice care. After fewer than five days in hospice care he died on September 30 with our daughter and me by his side. Now his pain and suffering are over. May he rest in peace and rise in glory, and may his memory be a blessing.

Bob was a watercolor artist, and our home is filled with his paintings. I thought I would share a few…



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  1. Relax... says:

    😦 I’m so sorry for your and your family’s loss. What beautiful paintings he did.

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  2. Debbie says:

    His watercolors are beautiful! Thoughts and prayers for you and your family 🙏🏻

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  3. arlene says:

    I am really sorry to hear about this Deb, may his soul rest in peace. God’s blessings to your family.

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  4. Fandango says:

    I’m sorry for your loss, but at least you have those beautiful painting to keep his memory alive.

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  5. OH DEB—— MY HEART HURTS FOR YOU — I JUST TOLD GARY & HE SAID- THEY HAVE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH—– JUST KNOW WE LOVE YOU & CARE– & YOU WILL CONTINUE TO BE IN OUR PRAYERS——– BOB’S ART WORK IS BEAUTIFUL– THANK YOU FOR SHARING THAT WITH US!! OUR PRAYERS FOR YOU DEB & YOUR DAUGHTER & HER FAMILY!!!

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    1. Thank you, Sonda. I truly appreciate all of your prayers. Even though Bob had been sick for so long, the end seemed to come very quickly.

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  6. alekmountain says:

    Having just subscribed to your website, I had no idea that your husband had been ill for four years. My heart goes out to you and your family . . . knowing full well that words cannot fill the vacuum created in your heart by your husband taking residence in heaven.

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    1. Thank you for those kind words.

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  7. Oh Deb, ever since he fell ill four years ago, I have often thought of you and wondered how you were coping. I am so sorry that he died, and I hope that knowing all of us here are holding you close in our thoughts will be a small comfort.

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    1. It is a comfort to know that people are keeping me in their thoughts, and I truly appreciate that. Thank you.

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  8. de Wets Wild says:

    Dear Deb, I am so sorry for your loss. We’ll be thinking of you and your whole family.

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    1. Thank you. I appreciate that, Dries.

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  9. AmyRose🌹 says:

    I am so truly sorry for your loss, Deb. OMG! My prayers are with you. My neighbor’s husband died a week ago as well and I know how deep this pain goes. She is taking comfort as I hope you are, that your husband’s suffering is finally over and he is really at peace. God be with you!! xo

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    1. Thank you. Yes, I am comforted by knowing that his suffering is over and he is finally at peace.

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  10. dgc says:

    Deb, how brave of you to write your blog under such suffocating grief. I don’t think I could have. How beautiful a tribute to share Bob’s lovely paintings. I cannot know your struggle, but cannot imagine a more difficult one. I hope your Faith and your cherished family will help you see your way through this time — not to avoid tears, not to forget, but rather to remember constantly the joy you and Bob shared those many years. Keep writing.

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    1. Thank you for those very kind words. Don. I am still trying to deal with the reality of this, but I do have a lot of support, and I know I will be okay.

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  11. Cee Neuner says:

    Oh I am so sorry for your sadnesses and grief. I’m so glad you and your daughter could be there with your husband. I can’t imagine how sad you must be feeling. His paintings were wonderful. What a special gift he has given .. it will always be easy to tap into is spirit and feel is joy and love. Take care of yourself and be gentle. Sending you and your daughters lots of love energy right now.

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    1. Thank you, Cee. I will take to heart your words that I should take care of myself and be gentle.

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  12. simplywendi says:

    Oh NO! I am so deeply sorry that your husband has passed on……..I have no idea what you are feeling but I am sure it a mixture of sadness, fear, longing and love. Looking at his paintings I am thankful that his creative talent lives on in your home…….seeing this beauty and his love hanging on your walls. My heart breaks for you and sending you gentle hugs.

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    1. Thank you, Wendi. I do have a mixture of feelings, and sometimes I feel very lost. Thank you for the gentle hugs.

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      1. simplywendi says:

        I cannot imagine………my heart just breaks for you and I wish there was something I could do to ease your pain or bring a little peace.

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      2. I really appreciate your caring and concern. It helps to know that people care. Thank you.

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      3. simplywendi says:

        I really really do………if you have specific prayer concerns or you would like me to send you a letter or a book or a movie, I would be thrilled to do so……..

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      4. You’re so sweet! I would be honored if you would just continue to pray for me, as I now have to turn my attention to helping my sister take care of our 92-year-old dad who has dementia.

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      5. simplywendi says:

        oh wow……….I am so very sorry. It would be my pleasure to continue to pray for you, your dad and your sister. May God’s blessings pour over you today…….

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  13. equinoxio21 says:

    He was a great artist. His art will help you and your family through grieving. Every time you see a painting of his will be a sweet moment.

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    1. Thank you. That is true. I have his paintings all over the house and many that have never been framed. Our adult children already have some of his paintings, and I’m letting the grandchildren choose some, too.

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      1. equinoxio21 says:

        It is the best way to do it. Both my parents were good painters. My mother more so. I have tons of their paintings framed and hanging on the walls. I have already given several to the girls. 👍🏻

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  14. Dear Deb,
    I’m sorry for your loss and grief. I have only now read your blog and hope you are taking great care of yourself. Offering prayers and warm wishes.

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    1. Thank you for those kind words. I’m trying to take care of myself and am also trying to stay busy. Most days I am okay, but some days the grief is overwhelming.

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